My hometown, my writing, my life

Why am I staying up past my bedtime to write about my hometown? At my age, when I’ve been on all sorts of medication because my sinuses are in their annual revolt against whatever is in the air or my diet? Shouldn’t I be in bed rather than trying to find words to express something that challenges every writer — the trip backwards to childhood?

Here’s how I got to this point — both tonight and in my life as a whole:

I’ve spent the last couple of days scrambling to do promotional stuff for my new book, Single-Digit Soccer. So far, it hasn’t panned out. At the end of the first official day of release and a pre-order period of a couple of weeks, my sales are, appropriately, in single digits.

Hey now, little speedyhead
The read on the speedmeter says
You have to go to task in the city

There’s no reason to hit the panic button. I have, as the old admirals might say, not yet begun to promote this thing. It’ll take time to get the word out, and I have plenty of time. It’s not as time-sensitive as Enduring Spirit, and it’s not publisher-dependent like Long-Range Goals.

As the night wore down, I figured I deserved a chance to do something a little more fun. I got back to a piece of writing I had started but not yet finished. It’s on an old R.E.M. song that isn’t one of my favorites. Though I’m unkind to What’s the Frequency, Kenneth? in this piece for Popdose, I was able to dwell on some pleasant nostalgia. I was back in my Chevrolet Monte Carlo (which had an R.E.M. connection of its own — Bill Berry sold a car to my buddy Chip’s family, and the Monte Carlo was therefore expendable) cruising over the hills of Franklin and Madison counties on the way home from Duke.

Even if you’re not from Georgia, it’s hard to write about R.E.M. without writing about Athens. They are inextricably linked. If Michael Stipe had never moved to Northeast Georgia and had gone to, say, the University of Illinois, he could’ve met the same three other guys and still had a band that was vastly different. The folk art and the landscapes are present in all of R.E.M.’s work, especially the early albums.

So I played up the history of our shared hometown. I even put in a picture of the double-barreled cannon. I couldn’t get a caption to pop up in the new Popdose design, but I didn’t bother to explain it. Like a good R.E.M. lyric, it might be better if people have to use their imaginations. (And Google, I suppose.)

It’s also been an emotional week. The staged live executions of two bright young people in Roanoke hit me hard. I saw the happy pictures of the two of them in the newsroom, and I like to think they’re in a happier place now getting the last laugh. But I also see my young newsroom-bound self in them, and I mourn the fact that they won’t get to continue the journey.

Where people drown and people serve
Don’t be shy, your just deserve
Is only just light years to go

Friends of ours moved to Savannah this summer. I chatted with them about Georgia and said the priorities are a little different. People in Georgia are concerned with the Georgia Bulldogs, a good lunch, the Georgia Bulldogs, a good dinner, the weather, maybe the stock market, and the Georgia Bulldogs.

bulldogI don’t mean that to be condescending. I remember a conversation from the great show Homicide (technically, from the reunion film) in which Giardello’s son goes to visit him in the hospital. G admonishes his son for eating some bad Chinese takeout. In Rome, G says, everyone would sit down in the middle of the day for a two-hour meal.

“Which is why the Romans never get anything done,” the younger G says.

“Maybe. But they know how to live.”

The ocean is the river’s goal
A need to leave the water knows
We’re closer now than light years to go

I got a lot done this summer. I finished Single-Digit Soccer at last. I started writing for The Guardian, fulfilling a longtime dream of writing for the British media. And I’ve done some of the best writing of my life in the last three months. I loved my first piece for The Guardian. (That piece also earned me a radio appearance that I think was my best-ever radio appearance, and the producers also seemed quite pleased.) My previous Popdose piece was a good one. I’ve done a couple of strong pieces at SoccerWire. And at my own SportsMyriad, I may never top the headline “Alex Morgan and the Bedbugs That Ate the NWSL.”

So I’m on a roll. But I think it’s more than that.

I used to scoff at the idea of “finding your voice” as a writer. In the modern newspaper era, frankly, most people didn’t have a voice. We were supposed to be dispassionate automatons. And people called us all lefty scumbags anyway. “It’s just like the liberal media to quit covering middle-school lacrosse,” griped our readers.

I worked at USA TODAY when we were trying to be innovative online and be anything but innovative in print. I had at least one editor who would be perfectly happy if I drained my stories of any compelling details. I fought an editor to get the dramatic story of Maykel Galindo’s escape from the Cuban national team to say something other than “Maykel Galindo is a soccer player. He used to play in Cuba, but now he plays in Major League Soccer. The end.”

A “voice,” for so many years in my head, was just something you adapted to your publication’s needs. I wrote for USA TODAY’s magazines after I left the paper, and I hopped around from style to style like Phil Hartman’s character showing off his different DJ voices in NewsRadio.

I’m at an age now where I can be myself. I’m not sure what flipped that switch in my brain. Maybe I’m finally getting healthier. (Without going into medical details, let’s just say a CPAP can be a very good thing.) Maybe it’s yoga. Maybe it’s because I occasionally let myself stay up and write after midnight. Maybe I just hit a limit of trying to please other people who had no idea what I could do best.

Leave the road and memorize
This life that pass before my eyes
Nothing is going my way

There’s no one left to take the lead
But I tell you and you can see
We’re closer now than light years to go

A few months ago, I was across a table from Athens Academy’s fine new headmaster and the athletic director. They asked me what about the Academy had helped me in my life and my career.

It’s not an easy question. Obviously, it’s a good school. Perhaps what I should’ve said was that the teachers were better than the teachers I would have at Duke. Because that’s true. I’m still thinking I will one day dedicate a book to the freshman writing instructor at Duke who gave me a bunch of contradictory instructions and a C-minus. But I’m not the vindictive sort. Most of the time.

I believe what I wound up telling them was that I had freedom. I could explore things. I could go to the music trailer and jam with Mr. Sherman, Mr. Carter and Ted Pecchio, who went on to a legit music career. Mr. Carter taught a humanities course that defied categorization — a bit of philosophy, a bit of sociology, a bit of politics.

Athens in general has that free, exploratory vibe. That’s why it has produced a lot of great bands who sound nothing at all like each other. Seattle has a sound. Athens has a scene.

Pick up here and chase the ride
The river empties to the tide
Fall into the ocean

It’s cliche to say I didn’t appreciate my hometown growing up. I actually think I did, even though, like a lot of high schoolers, I was anxious to get out and see the world, starting at Duke.

I could not have gone to the University of Georgia. Not as a undergraduate, at least. That’s a pity for my family’s pocketbook, because I automatically qualified for enough scholarships to live in luxury if only I had stayed in Athens.

I also not sure I could’ve gone back to raise a family, even though I often envy my Athens friends and family. Life is easier there, just as it is in many other mid-sized Southern towns. Less traffic. Less pressure. Less aggravation.

Northern Virginia aggregates the best and brightest from the rest of the country, which is exciting and yet daunting. Parents of elementary school kids fret over their kids’ college prospects, knowing that being from here is actually a bit of a hindrance. The University of Virginia can’t just take everybody from Fairfax County, even though thousands of students here are eminently qualified. I did college admission interviews for Duke for a couple of years, and I finally quit because I was pissed off that the bright kids who didn’t go to the science magnet school never seemed to have a chance.

But this is home. I’m in Vienna, which has a civic identity beyond the suburban sprawl. I rarely leave the house without seeing someone I know. I love my neighborhood and my neighbors. I can chill about my kids’ college futures long enough to appreciate the great opportunities they have here. I’m not going anywhere.

Part of my heart is in Athens. It’s on the fringes of the UGA campus, where I used to hang out at the Tate Center and play pool. (They apparently took out all the pool tables. So I’m definitely not moving back.) It’s at Athens Academy, though they’ve built so much over the past 20 years that I would hardly recognize it. It’s in all the great eateries that no longer exist and a few of the ones that do.

And I’m just grateful that Athens spread just enough of that invisible force, that creative power, that je ne sais whatever that made me first want to be a musician, then a writer. And that I’m still learning what I was given as a child and what I can do with it today.

Pick up here and chase the ride
The river empties to the tide
All of this is coming your way

The quotes interspersed here are, of course, from R.E.M.’s song Find the River, the last song on their brilliant album Automatic for the People. The album is all about the passage of time. It’s melancholy and bittersweet in places, but it’s also comforting and inspiring. Rock critics usually write about the album as an extended view on passing out of youth into middle age, seeing some friends and family pass away and trying to figure out life before summer turns to autumn.

In song and verse, a river is often something timeless. That’s how Sting used the metaphor in The Soul Cages. At least, that’s what I said in my paper in my Philosophy and Music class senior year at Duke, and I got an A-minus in the class, so I must be right.

A river is also a path. It may start somewhere humble — a sort-of Athens band, Indigo Girls, once wrote that the Mississippi is mighty but starts in Minnesota at a place that you can walk across with five steps down. It leads to the ocean, gathering speed and strength as it goes.

So I stayed up way past my bedtime because I had a realization that I had to put down in words. And though I’ve taken about 2,000 words and 45 years to reach this point, I can sum it up in four words, looking back at the place that raised me and looking ahead to whatever’s next:

I’ve found my river.

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Sexual politics and self-immolation on the Internet: A case study

Every once in a while, we see a perfect storm of controversy.

Today, we saw male entitlement, Millennial entitlement, Internet shaming, muddled online flirting and plain old idiocy combining into a miasma of self-defeating nonsense.

I picked up the conversation on a tip from a fellow women’s socceraholic, right about here:

On first read, this seemed harmless to me, particularly if you’ve just been reading about or experiencing the vast wasteland known as Tinder. The first thing that popped to my mind was Maeby from Arrested Development:

Which is certainly an improvement over what seems to be a typical Tinder conversation as far as I can gather not just from the Vanity Fair piece of late but from various friends:

Hey, what are you up to?

Not much. Just watching True Detective.

Cool. If you’ll stay right there, maybe I can come over and (bleeeeeep)

I don’t know why women bother with Tinder. Then again, I never understood why the bright feminist women I knew in college went to frat parties to get drunk and hook up with dirtbags.

To me, that Facebook exchange seems like an awkward flirtation or even an awkward way of just expressing admiration. And how can you not admire someone who has the creativity and the toughness to go on Tinder pretending to be a ghost. Good for her.

And as it turns out, the guy wasn’t even meaning to hit on her, he says.

He even sent her a nice apology and tried to take things back to the “Hi, how are you, I admire your work” stage.

See? He never really inten–

Wait … what? So … the story just changed.

So we’ll back up a second and see how these two got acquainted in the first place. Apparently, Schoen hosted something called “Mugglecast,” and Spelman, then a teenager, was a fan and befriended him on Facebook. (See, this is why I stopped taking random friend requests on Facebook — if you love my writing, follow me on Twitter, talk to me on Twitter, maybe get to know me, and then maybe I’ll take your friend request on Facebook. Don’t even talk to me about Instagram.)

And the first contact since the friend request was accepted was rather sweet.

Ten days later, they had that awkward Facebook exchange, and Spelman decided she really didn’t need him as a Facebook friend.

Which he did not take well.

Gee, and a good Svengali is so hard to find.

Let’s put this all in another context — rejection and the male ego. Look, rejection is hard. I was rejected all the way through high school. In retrospect, I understand — I was in no way mature enough to handle a relationship. I would’ve projected my troubles at home onto someone else, and I would’ve been a needy, clingy, socially awkward boyfriend. (Spare a thought here for the sweet young woman who dated me for a few weeks after high school.) And at the time, I’m sure said things I regret.

So I’m glad we had no Internet, where any whining I might have done could’ve wound up immortalized in the digital world and sent out to people who didn’t know me and wouldn’t believe me when I said I meant no harm. I’d like to think I would’ve had the good sense not to put anything rude online, but you never know.

Given all that, I so wanted to give the guy in this brouhaha the benefit of the doubt. I’ve seen other cases of Internet shaming gone overboard, and I’ve started to sympathize with the people being shamed. (See the compelling NYT Magazine piece “How One Stupid Tweet Blew Up Justine Sacco’s Life.”) This guy was hurt, and he’s not really a stalking psychopath, right?

OK, that’s a little mean.

Well, that’s not a great comparison. Any chance you could try to back it up and just say the two most underused words in the English language — “I’m sorry” or “my bad”?

Wait, wait — weren’t you so impressed with her writing that you wanted to offer her a job that paid double?

OK, now things are just getting gross.

But wait! He’s apparently just trolling for fun and profit!

Brilliant!

Schoen also played the feminist card, having helped to start a site called Feminspire. But The Daily Dot dug into that and found that his business associates have a strange habit of racing away from him like a 1990s Tour de France cyclist on PEDs.

There’s an old saying: When you’re in a hole, quit digging. But as I type, he is continuing to sneer at everyone on Twitter. He’s not playing the victim card, but he’s the sole bread-winner for a family of nine, including a formerly homeless 60-year-old woman. Not that it’ll affect his career. Even though he said earlier he was cashing in on the attention. She hasn’t mentioned him in hours, and yet he’s trying to paint her as the one who won’t move on.

I’ve dealt with some Internet hate before. A certain women’s soccer player says something that doesn’t ring true, I question her about it, she snaps back at me on Twitter, and then I’ve got hundreds of fanboys and fangirls telling me I’m an ignorant sexist pig. I can’t claim the way I deal with it (calming, conciliatory words to the player and a sense of humor with a bit of self-deprecation to the angry fanatics) is the best.

But I know when someone needs to step away from the Internet. Maybe re-evaluate things. Then come back with some humility and humor.

Somehow, I doubt that’s going to happen here.

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Guardian: Is Tinder really creating a ‘dating apocalypse’?

Short answer: Yes.

After that Vanity Fair article about dating apps and the “hookup culture” that surrounds them, an unknown Tinder employee tweeted out a storm of protestations, including: “Our data tells us that the vast majority of Tinder users are looking for meaningful connections.” Now as anyone who has ever used the app can tell you, that’s just not true. Tinder is for finding casual sex, and everything about it is casual and its unique selling point is a parade of noncommittal sex partners to be pursued, or disregarded, by such a lackadaisical, non-committal gesture as a swipe.

via Is Tinder really creating a ‘dating apocalypse’? | Technology | The Guardian.

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Yes, many parents want to scale back at work

That’s the upshot of this Washington Post piece.

The story segues quickly into the expenses of child care, which is just part of the equation. The other part comes later: Jobs with flexibility to tend for kids are essential. (If that weren’t the case, I might still be at USA TODAY.)

The ideal solution: Employ more people and have them work fewer hours. What sense does it make to have parents working 60-hour weeks while others are unemployed?

Then if you have health care and child care that fills any gaps, you have a productive, family-friendly society.

Too logical?

 

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How Jon Stewart changed the media … CNN, at least

When a comedian hands you your ass on a plate, the best way to respond it to learn from it:

Stewart clearly has had an impact on other media careers and decisions, most notably on the termination of the political debate show Crossfire on CNN. The then-CEO of the network, Jon Klein, said when he canceled the show in 2005 that he was “firmly in the Jon Stewart camp” on the issue of cable news offering too much partisan arguing. One veteran CNN executive told me that Stewart’s determined efforts to hold that network’s feet to the fire had had an impact all the way to the top of CNN’s management.

via Bill Carter: How Jon Stewart Changed Media (and Made Megyn Kelly Cry) – Hollywood Reporter.

It’s a pity Fox didn’t respond the same way.

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Looking Back at ‘NewsRadio’s Perfect Pilot – Splitsider

Looking Back at ‘NewsRadio’s Perfect Pilot – Splitsider.

I love NewsRadio, but I disagree. The pilot is a little clumsy — watch the “Catherine” character and Joe Rogan’s predecessor in particular.

The pilot of Cheers, mentioned in the story, is indeed perfect, introducing Sam, Diane and the wonderful Coach.

“Is there an Ernie Pantuso here?”

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Great moments in bad reporting, climate change/Ice Age edition

You may have seen some reports recently about the “Mini Ice Age” coming up in the 2030s, and you may have wondered why this wasn’t reported anywhere beyond sensationalist UK newspapers and conservative U.S. media.

It’s not a conspiracy. It’s because you can’t just throw a couple of words together and assume cause and effect.

The study, presented at the Royal Astronomical Society last week but not yet peer-reviewed and so forth, suggests the sun may be headed for another “Maunder minimum,” a period of relative inactivity last seen when there was ice on the Thames.

Naturally, some alleged science writers ran with the “Mini Ice Age!” story.

Which is not what the researcher said. The researcher was talking only about the sun. If the sun was the only factor in the Earth’s temperature, then yes, we would be getting colder. Of course, if the sun was the only factor in the Earth’s temperature, Earth would be uninhabitable. We can live and breathe and not freeze to death because we have an atmosphere. It’s nice.

The lamestream media were a little slow to respond to the “Mini Ice Age” story because, you know, research takes time. It’s much easier to draw an irrational conclusion and run to the pub, which explains a lot about the UK media (especially if you read soccer transfer gossip). Thankfully, the Post’s Sarah Kaplan came up with the following:

1. Researcher Valentina Zharkova presented this information without talking about a “Mini Ice Age.” She’s only studying the sun. It’s what she does.

2. Other studies have already taken the Maunder minimum into account. Here’s one conclusion:

Therefore, under the increasing anthropogenic emissions in the future, the impact of the grand solar minimum such as MM-type is likely to reduce the global warming by about 20%. It means that a future grand solar minimum could slow down but not stop the global warming. These conclusions should be verified by more projection experiments from many other climate models.

And they have. They show solar activity might mitigate some of the worst climate change scenarios in some regions — at least, that’s what I draw from this poorly written sentence: “For a high-end decline in solar ultraviolet irradiance, the impact on winter northern European surface temperatures over the late twenty-first century could be a significant fraction of the difference in climate change between plausible AR5 scenarios of greenhouse gas concentrations.”

So we might still be able to ski in Norway?

Here’s an older and clearer study, linked in the Post study along with the other two:

The Maunder minimum is connected to the Little Ice Age, a time of markedly lower temperatures, in particular in the Northern hemisphere. Here we use a coupled climate model to explore the effect of a 21st-century grand minimum on future global temperatures, finding a moderate temperature offset of no more than −0.3°C in the year 2100 relative to a scenario with solar activity similar to recent decades. This temperature decrease is much smaller than the warming expected from anthropogenic greenhouse gas emissions by the end of the century.

Great.

3. Other factors contributed to the freezing of the Thames, everything from volcanic ash to bridge construction.

And, you know, the fact that we had not yet wrecked the sky.

So, I’m sorry, but further research beyond concluding that A+B=C shows us that we’re getting, at best, a slight mitigating factor.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m trying to find holes to punch in the New Yorker’s Seattle earthquake doom story.

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